Starting over.

Hi.. my name is Hannah and I am a bad diabetic. There are so many things I need to be doing but I just don't do them. My A1C is currently 6.3 which is a good number in the diabetic community however when you look at your CGM and your sugars look like contractions (If you know what those look like) that is not a good thing. I struggle with the battle between food and blood sugar constantly and usually food wins.

I am trying to make some changes in the new year but at the same time I am well aware that being a bad diabetic will probably keep me from obtaining some of those goals. Welcome to my journey or changing my status from bad diabetic to controlled diabetic and maybe then a "good" diabetic... if there is such a thing.

This is my journey... care to join me?

New Pump

There is something terrifying about changing insulin pumps. I mean it is a huge part of my life that I am about to change. I keep thinking about it, getting excited and then in the same breath my stomach will turn and I will freak out. Is this a normal thing? I know I need to just relax a little bit. I have heard great things about the Omnipod and no one I have talked to has said they hated it. However it is comforting to know that I have a 45 day money back guarantee. Maybe I am freaking out for nothing. I am just terrible with change. The pod comes in tomorrow and I have training in 2 weeks. Ill decide then what I think!

I got my pin!! Do you have yours?

I recently signed up to join the movement to try and make the blue circle the official logo of Diabetes Awareness! I got my pins today and so far only my husband and I are wearing them but I plan to give some to my family in an attempt to get this logo recognized!

If you would like to sign up to help this movement follow this link

http://shop.idf.org/catalog/product_info.php?products_id=63

Changes

So I am in the transition of attempting to switch from the One Touch Ping to Insulet's Omnipod. I am super excited but surprisingly very nervous! The more I think about it the more nervous I get. Will my blood sugars be crazy? Am I going to knock it off all the time? Do I need to make the change? is this a good decision?  A lot of things to think about. On the other hand it is a tubeless system and that seems just so freeing to me. I love having a pump but I hate getting wrapped up in the cord, having to figure out how to wear a dress and have to worry about catching the cord on everything. So this will be an interesting but fun change I hope.

In other news, I have officially been 10 days with out a diet coke, and for those who know me know that this was not an easy thing to give up but honestly, I don't really miss it. My husband and I are also eating better, more natural/organic, fruits and veggies and we both just feel so much better! Healthy eating really can make you feel like a new person!

Until next time...... keep calm and pump on.

I am terrible.

At keeping up with this. I failed miserably at the diabetes blog week. I need to step up my game! Ill try harder next week! 

2013 diabetes blog week.

Being new to the diabetic blog world I did not know something like this existed. It is exciting to have topics to share and be able to participate with other diabetic bloggers.


The first topic Share and don't share is about things we wish our doctors knew about us... "Often our health care team only sees us for about 15 minutes several times a year, and they might not have a sense of what our lives are really like. Today, let’s pretend our medical team is reading our blogs. What do you wish they could see about your and/or your loved one's daily life with diabetes? On the other hand, what do you hope they don't see?  (Thanks to Melissa Lee of Sweetly Voiced for this topic suggestion.)"

I was blessed with an amazing Endo who seems to remember our conversations and he seems to gave a general idea of my life. However, I feel that he only see's the bad in my blood sugars and I wish he could really see how hard I try (most days) to keep everything under control. However on the other side of that, I would hate for him to see how bad it really gets sometimes. I know he can see the numbers on a piece of paper but he doesn't see the 6 doughnuts that made it the awful number. Sometimes (especially during a low) I cannot control myself and this is something I don't feel anyone should see. 

pretty much.

Honestly there is probably more that I don't want my doctor to know right now than I want him to. I am in the process of making some changes but until then there are things that I will keep to myself on my visits. I used to be very meticulous with my sugars and checking, but as time has gone on I have slacked off a bit (I am sure that is normal). But I plan to get it together so that if/when he asks me things I won't have to lie.

I am making a decision.....

To live healthier. That sounds weird coming from a diabetic I know, because I should be living and eating healthy already but let me be honest with you and say... I don't, at all (hangs head in shame). But I have become compelled to do something better for myself and my health. I need to stop eating stuff like this...

bad. (but delicious)

 

and start eating stuff like this...



good.

 

Now, let me just say that while I am totally motivated now, I guarantee you I will hate my life when I start giving up things I love. I cannot do this cold turkey. I know most of you are thinking that is the best way to do it but I can't. I am going to slowly start replacing the things that are bad for me with things that are good for me, with hopes that it will also help my blood sugars by not eating so many processed sugars. We will see how this goes, hopefully I will go from looking like this...

she looks like she feels terrible

 

to looking like this...